A Pigeon among the Cats


Some days I feel like a neurotic pigeon,
pecking out a meagre existence,
surviving on my dumb luck alone
in a world full of cats.
I constantly walk on eggshells,
while all around me the
sleek fat chic pad confidently by,
their lips curled in sneers or snarls.

I’m an endangered species
with no defence except
my novelty value.
Which is no real protection for a neurotic pigeon
whose dumb luck could ruin out at any time,
constantly scrabbling to exist
in a world full of cats.
A pigeon who realises that his problem is
he’s that bloody stupid he’s forgotten he’s got wings.

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Cacophony of Stardust a chat with Al Barz


Prior to the release of his debut poetry collection “Cacophony of Stardust” this weekend at Southcart Books in Walsall I took time out to sit down with one of the most well known and respected poets on my local poetry scene and beyond Al Barz, to ask him some questions about the new book and more.

Q.Congratulations on the publication of your new poetry collection Cacophony of Stardust, what was the inspiration behind the title and what can readers expect to find within the book’s pages?

A. I’ll start by saying how I appreciate your generosity with time and attention you give to local poets including myself, with events, Walsall Poetry Society, and these interviews. It means a lot especially from a very popular fellow poet. So thank you for that!

Last year, in late December, I was ‘strong-armed’ (their phrase) by Matty Cash, together with Paul B Morris as his henchman, into putting together a collection. Without their push it wouldn’t have been done. Not yet anyway! I’m thankful for them giving me that push and for their publishing skills.

I tend to hear poetry in my head when I’m reading or writing; the music, intonation and rhythms of lines are an embedded experience. So when I was selecting, from several hundred, these 150 or so, to me it seemed to represent a cacophony; a mixture of sounds creating dissonance as they rub shoulders.

‘Stardust’, well because that’s what a book is, what I am, what we all are, shaped into our human existence imposing our order on the universe’s struggle for entropy….. and also because it’s in one of my poems ‘Moonshine Over Monaco’ which borrows from Joni Mitchell’s song, Woodstock. “We are stardust, we are golden…”

I am truly grateful to Gary Longden, who reviewed this book for me, saying there is something for everyone. My subjects, styles and emotional attachments range pretty widely and I tried in vain to shoehorn them into ‘chapters’ according to subject matter, but these are porous categories.

Being rebellious when confronted with boundaries, I’ll blur the edges, drag in other concepts and kick holes in boxes to let them breathe. My poems have musicality and well defined poetic structure… or not at all, and some reject the concept of ‘genre’.

So you’ll find pieces that are light, dark, horrific, tragic, gleeful, cerebral, some that rant and some that chortle. It’s a bran tub for you to delve a hand into and whatever you pull out will be different each time.

Q. I’ve read and enjoyed the book immensely it’s a great collection of your work, what are your favourite poems within the book and why do they appeal to you?

A. Thanks for that. I’m glad you enjoyed reading it. I am quite pleased with it myself. As for favourites, in Desert Island Discs I always think eight is not enough tracks, but I’ve drawn the line at five here.

Leandra, about a teenage crush, is one of the first poems to get a musical backing. Leandra, the poem, the recording, the CD album (long out of print) occupied a lot of my attention, to the disgruntlement of my wife. I mean, how can you be jealous of a poem?

Patina Paternus, ‘a dish of my father’ is a personal, simplified slice of my lifetime without having a dad around. I knew it would be hard writing about my father but making it about my missed experience, it almost wrote itself. Hardly ever did I juggle with it or strain over lines.

Two Minutes I choose because 11th November could easily be just another annual ceremony with old people and soldiers marching and talk of war, and I wanted to write something more accessible, for a child to grasp.

SJ is about a brilliant young woman, Sammy Joe, about to embark on a Masters Degree who became afflicted with mental illness with brutal episodes of psychosis, and who eventually took her own life. I still mourn her, that wonderful, creative life lost, and am sad for the daughter she left behind. It took ages to be able to set down my feelings of loss of a friend and a friendship, and I am pleased at the beauty that appeared within its form.

Calm Down! gives me a little freedom for fun in performance, to add expression and humour – and I’m pleased with the backing track I created on GarageBand.

Q. As a veteran – I hope you don’t mind me using that word – of the poetry scene in Walsall, the West Midlands and beyond I’m interested to know how and when you started writing poetry and what inspired you to pick up the pen?

A. How did I get to be a veteran?? But it’s true, and it’s a long time since I was ten. My writing was atrocious then, I couldn’t be arsed, and I always got poor marks. Then I came across a piece of advice – ‘find a word you don’t know in the dictionary and use it’. I became obsessive about it. I wove into my next essay four bloody good words for a ten-year-old and it got me top marks and high praise from Miss Love, my English teacher. My opening phrase… “I had become listless with life….” I can’t recall what that was supposed to mean, but hey!

My mum gave me ‘A Child’s Garden of Verses’ by R L Stevenson, and others. I read it over and over, and composed poems way back then, but nobody really noticed. When he died, I raided granddad’s bookcase for more material before they dumped his hundreds of books and I ferreted away a couple of dozen classic poets, which I still have.

Teenage motivated me to develop a devastating style of writing letters to girls I’d met. I practically orgasmed from the endorphin rush in my brain with every letter I posted, often including poems I made up. (See? It’s all about getting the girl!)

I had four poems accepted for an anthology by a Welsh publisher when I was twenty-two, the first I ever sent off, and I still have the royalty cheque. (It was never about the money.) it was so easy that I assumed anyone could get published anytime. I didn’t see it as an achievement so I didn’t bother much after that.

Then Life crowded out Poetry but she is a tenacious mistress. She lay in wait around corners, naked, enticing, beckoning for me to spend days in her arms. If I didn’t, the earth would no longer sing, clouds would drape themselves over trees and love would die. So I relented.

You give birth to a piece of art when it comes together, surprising yourself with the power and beauty of your muse. You may say to yourself “Wow! That’s absolute genius, man! Where did that come from?” And it’s not conceit, it’s delight.

How can you not keep returning to a lover that makes you feel like that? But I never forget that every brilliant poem is surrounded by piles of unusable snippets and plenty of mediocrity.

And my handwriting is still atrocious.

Al Barz performing at Southcart Books

Q. As well as being a poet, many of the times I’ve seen you perform I know you’re not afraid to whip out your organ and perform your work to a keyboard accompaniment. When it comes to writing poems how do you determine which ones work better to a tune and what goes into your music writing process?

A. Haha! I joined Poetry Wednesbury in the 90’s which got me back to working on my writing more. I had a Yamaha keyboard sitting idly by and thought one or two of my poems might work with some music, so I sat down and picked out chords, added preset rhythms and so on. It worked quite well and gained added interest from poetry crowds, even at Birmingham Arts Fest, for several seasons.

Whether a poem is suitable usually depends on it having a consistent rhythmic structure throughout, to fit with a regular music rhythms. It is an aesthetic extension of the performance rather than a song. Blurred boundaries. I create the poem, create the track, alter the poem to fit with it, adjust the track to suit, and so on. Pondering and frustration play a part and hours of staring blankly while the brain filters the cacophony. 😜
Nowadays, iPads and GarageBand app have become my go-to for backing tracks. They’re getting more complex, too, and it can take several months to develop. Some tracks break free and refuse to support their poem. I abandon those to the Internet. Some are cantankerous, like If You Were Birmingham which underwent a personality change after I married it to its track (I Would Hug You). They have since divorced.

Q. After the launch of Cacophony of Stardust what’s next for you?

A. You think I’m organised, don’t you? The mess of creative impulse in my head will throw up a strand of something that may lead somewhere. I have thousands of words of a novel written and lying dormant, hundreds more poems that could turn into another book, some music looking for a poem and vice versa, and a continual list of events that I want to attend.

Video is what I’m veering towards. On my website, before I ditched it in preparation for a redesign, I had posted a very raw piece of animation to Leandra. It depends on health and home commitments, but I want to stretch into video more. However, I never want to lose the performance gigs where concrete has set around my spiritual feet.

Q. If folks want to find out more or listen/read some of your work where can they find you online?

A. As a bit of a computer boffin I’ve had an online Internet presence for over twenty-five years and built a dozen websites. It may take a while, but there’s a redesign of my main website started. In WordPress, my poems have now been depleted but I occasionally add more. SoundCloud has recordings of poems and music tracks and there’s some on Reverbnation and a scant selection of YouTube videos.
My website :: www.albarz.uk
WordPress :: https://albarz20.wordpress.com
SoundCloud :: https://soundcloud.com/al-barz
Reverbnation :: https://www.reverbnation.com/albarz9
FaceBook :: AlBarz Twitter :: @AlBarz
LinkedIn :: Al Barz Google+ :: Al Barz

Once upon a time I was the only Al Barz on the Internet, but now loads more Al Barzes have sneaked in… and a Persian mountain… but there’s still only one me.

Thanks Al for that great interview, if you can’t make the launch you can buy a copy of Al’s new book on Amazon here.

Call for Poetry Submissions from Fly on the Wall Poetry Press


Fly on the Wall Poetry Press:
For charitable anthologies

Submissions are now open!
June 10th – September 10th 2018

Theme: ‘Outsiders’

Guidelines: I am looking for poems which respond to this theme in any way which you see fit. I am expecting there to be a wide range of interpretations – that’s exactly what I want!
For example – you may interpret ‘outsiders’ as the homeless, the lonely elderly, sexual abuse survivors, ‘the undesirables’, the uneducated, the bullied – you name it, if you can make it fit, I want to read it.
You may like to think about a cause you would like to fundraise for as you write. This anthology will be much more fluid in that I want the charity (or charities) we raise money for, to be inspired by YOUR ideas. This means that you are in the driving seat.
If you feel passionate about something in society which makes you, or others, ‘Outsiders’, I want you to write about it.

How To Submit: Go to http://www.flyonthewallpoetry.co.uk and follow the below!

• You can submit an unlimited number of poems, credited where previously published. However, please do just submit once.
• There is a £2.00 fee to submit to Fly on the Wall Poetry Press – this is so that I can give my contributors a free copy of the book only. The paypal button below will take you to pay – if you don’t have paypal please email isabellekenyon@hotmail.co.uk
• Send your poems in a word doc – one poem on each page, to isabellekenyon@hotmail.co.uk with the subject as follows: ‘Your Name/Submission’. Please enclose a short biography also of your writing credits. Past experience will not sway my decision but is useful to add context to your work.
• If your paypal email is different to the email you use to submit to me, please state this in your email.

The sacred art of barbecuing


I place on the altar slabs of bloody red meat,
that I hunted down as the sun rose.
tearing apart with my teeth, the packet from Lidl.

I move the sacrifice into the sacred pattern,
determined by the casting of runes it lies on
the metal grill that bears the holy sigil, ASDA shopping basket.

I start to ignite the purifying flames repeating
the chant I learnt by heart from my father.
Sparking the magic fire stick, I chant, “light you bastard.”

Slowly the sacrifice blackens, but the gods are impatient,
I apply the blessed lighter fuel, then my hands and feet
move in the revered pattern, putting the fire on my trousers out.

Finally the holy smoke snakes heavenward
joining the black clouds that have started to gather.
I erect the consecrated brolly and stay put.

The skies reject my burnt offering and the rain falls
I anoint myself with the blessed four cans of Banks’ mild,
wondering if I had done a rain dance by accident.

Butterfly Wings a chat with Ian Davies


 

Walsall poet and songsmith Ian Davies releases his poetry collection “Butterfly Wings,” this Saturday with a book launch at Southcart Books in Walsall. I had a quick chat with Ian prior to the launch to get some more information on the book and what went into it.

Q.Congratulations on the publication of Butterfly Wings, I wonder if you would mind sharing a little about the collection, the themes within and why you titled it so?

A.Thanks Richard and thank you for your support in publishing my books. The theme of Butterfly Wings is the psychological and emotional effects of childhood abuse that I experienced; and how, long after the event, the residual effects still influence and destroy self and world perception. Hopefully I have been able to give an insight into my journey through this and my recovery from this.

The title comes from a concept in chaos theory that states if enough butterflies flap their wings in synch then the energy created could cause an earthquake somewhere in the world. This for me describes perfectly the aftershocks that abuse causes long after the events themselves have ended. Even now I find I have to deal with a piece of my past distorting my views.

Q. You’ve chosen to share some very personal poems and ideas, what bought you to this point where you decided it was time to do so?

A.The main weapon an abuser utilises is silence. This book is my way of breaking my silence. This book has been with me for a long time, some of the initial poems date back to my early twenties. It is a book I never wanted to write but knew I needed to. The hurdles in coming to this point were

1. Do I want people to know this about me?
2. How much do I want them to see?

I feel it important that people do become aware of the continuing traumas adults experience from being abused as children; and now I feel strong enough and complete enough to allow others into my world and on my journey

Q. Butterfly Wings is your second book, tell me a little about your first book, Dog.

A.The main theme in Butterfly Wings focuses on the sexual abuse I endured, Dog in a way is a prequel to Butterfly Wings. The main theme in Dog is the effects of psychological abuse on self-identity and relationships. Although the main character, Dog, is a fictional character his journey is also my journey.

On this note I am currently working on an illustrated edition of Dog so watch this space.

Q. As well as being a poet, you’re also a guitarist and songwriter. How do you know when you start on an idea whether it will be a poem or a song and what is the difference between writing both?

A.That is an excellent question that doesn’t have a simple answer. The majority of time it tends to be that I will be toying around with melody lines and chord progressions which eventual form into some kind of structure, which I feel is good enough for recording; this then requires obsessive listening to for about a month. In this time I then usually realise that I have a poem that could fit the melody line and mood of the instrumental piece and usually this makes for a happy marriage between poetry and music.

Other times, whilst listening, a lyric line can pop into my head and then this grows in to a full lyric. When asked about my music I say I don’t write ‘songs’ I just create room for words and music to connect. So I guess, for me, there really is little difference between writing poetry and writing a lyric; rhythm is important in both, in poetry to give the work pace and momentum and in music to fit with the melody of a song, so for me there is no real difference between the two; for me a song is simply poetry put to music

Ian in action on the guitar

QA.. Once Butterfly Wings is launched what next?

You know I hadn’t really thought about that one ha-ha. I guess what comes next is another book; I have been writing since my teens so I have a mass of words gathering dust and pleading to be set free into the world. But first is my book launch at Southcart Books on Saturday 26th May; for which I feel privileged to be invited to do.

Also I have started performing my music live, and recording new material, so that takes up a good portion of my time, and I am revisiting my art but on a digital platform. So I guess what’s next is more of the above.

Q. Where can folks find you online?

A. I don’t have a very prominent virtual presence. My poetry is on my Facebook page, https://www.facebook.com/thebaldofwalsall/ and my music and recorded poetry and experimental sound work can be found on https://soundcloud.com/iand63 and my books can be found on Lulu.com and Amazon.co.uk

Thank you to Ian for agreeing to the interview and being so upfront, I’ve been privileged to see an advance copy of the book and it’s excellent so if you come along to the launch you can not only pick up a copy but you will get to hear Ian read from it as well.

Cockatiels and Bold Women


I’m very pleased to have had two poems accepted into Cockatiels and Bold Women, a poetry anthology being sold to raise money for St GIles Hospice. Compiled by Staffordshire Poet Laureate Emily Rose Galvin the collection is intriguingly split up into five sections based on prompts from Hospice residents and all the poets in the book have risen to the challenge of producing great poems based on these.

Buy the book by just clicking on the link here.

 

A poem for Mental Health Awareness week


It’s not just you
There are many who can help.
No one is alone.

I know a lot of people affected by mental health issues including myself, support is always available, if you need help start by clicking here or talking to someone you trust.

 

Science vs. Poetry


I was never really keen about science at school,
until that day my mate on an idiotic dare
ate some copper sulphate and puked blue bile.
Briefly my interest in science grew,
until I discovered that to be a good scientist,
you also really needed to be good at mathematics.

I was never really keen on poetry at school,
until that day to impress a girl I wrote a poem
and was made to read it out to the whole class.
Briefly my interest in poetry grew,
until my friends that lunchtime,
kicked the sense back into me.

The fantastic Lost Haiku project, poetry in the wild


A good friend and talented writer and poet James Josiah has started a wonderful project on Facebook and Twitter called lost haiku. The premise is simple, members of the group write haiku, James prints them off and leaves them on his travels for people to find and enjoy.

Here’s James description of the project

I’ve written a load of haiku this year, like 50+ so far and I couldn’t really figure out what to do with them and I’m not really into the whole publishing my work thing any more (long story) So what I’m doing is printing them off, laminating them and then leaving them out in the wild for folks to find and… I dunno maybe share them or hide them elsewhere?
Now I don’t go very far so if you would like to help me disperse them that would be great. If you’d like to contribute a haiku or four that would be tremendous.
I’m on twitter as @losthaiku and will be using the hashtag #losthaiku as well (I’ve also written this info on the back of the ones I’ve left out thus far)

I’m a member and big fan of the project and I’m proud to say one of my haiku was recently released into the wilds of Manchester, where hopefully someone will find and enjoy it.

If this project seems like fun to you it’s easy to get involved, click here to follow lost haiku on twitter here

Or ask to join the Facebook group by clicking here

 

 

The Promise


Many years ago I made a foolish promise,
it consisted of five simple words.
” I will always love you.”
You took my promise and
reminded me of it every day,
until my fragile hope
became iron in your grip.
Five iron words.
Five iron nails you drive slowly
into my heart each day.
Five words you engraved
on every link of the chain
that binds me to you.